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Mar. 13th, 2011 05:19 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
deusexmechanicI was raised on the nastiest backwater refugee camp Earth has to offer, my parents were both killed by Nietzchiean slavers when I was a kid, and I only made it offworld alive but for the grace of the gorgeous Beka Valentine's boyfriend being a deadbeat jerk.
I like engines better than I like people, I'm doing this whole 'save the universe' bit with Captain Fantastic back in the real world, but much as I like it I sure as hell don't buy into it, and I'll be the first to admit I've probably done worse crap than some of the inmates here.
I don't know why this place brought me back with no memories, I don't know what happened to me before I came here last time, and I'll be perfectly honest, some of the stuff I said in my old entries? Some of the stuff I said to Tyr? Makes me not want to remember. Some of the stuff that I said to the rest of you makes me wish that I did.
So here's the mantra for those of us struck by the urge to get all desperate confessional, repeat after me:
"The universe hates me, and I don't get a say in what it hits me with."
No kidding, you can't fight that, all you get to decide is how you run your damage control programs, and for all the stupid crap I've done wrong in my life, guess what? This place couldn't dredge a single thing out of me that I'm ashamed of.
I like engines better than I like people, I'm doing this whole 'save the universe' bit with Captain Fantastic back in the real world, but much as I like it I sure as hell don't buy into it, and I'll be the first to admit I've probably done worse crap than some of the inmates here.
I don't know why this place brought me back with no memories, I don't know what happened to me before I came here last time, and I'll be perfectly honest, some of the stuff I said in my old entries? Some of the stuff I said to Tyr? Makes me not want to remember. Some of the stuff that I said to the rest of you makes me wish that I did.
So here's the mantra for those of us struck by the urge to get all desperate confessional, repeat after me:
"The universe hates me, and I don't get a say in what it hits me with."
No kidding, you can't fight that, all you get to decide is how you run your damage control programs, and for all the stupid crap I've done wrong in my life, guess what? This place couldn't dredge a single thing out of me that I'm ashamed of.
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HE'S STILL MAD AT YOUR AMNESIA
Date: 2011-03-13 05:27 am (UTC)HARPER LOVES YOU TOO, REX.
Date: 2011-03-13 05:29 am (UTC)NO NEVER AGAIN
Date: 2011-03-13 05:31 am (UTC)KISSY KISSY!
Date: 2011-03-13 05:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-13 05:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-13 05:38 am (UTC)Trust me on this one, you really don't.
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Date: 2011-03-13 05:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-13 05:48 am (UTC)[Yeah, he just made that noise into the comm. You can practically hear him cringing.]
Let's just agree that as your former warden I give you express permission to mash the brains outta my theoretical offspring in any way you can manage.
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Date: 2011-03-13 05:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-13 05:49 am (UTC)I give you my ~mark of approval~
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Date: 2011-03-13 05:48 am (UTC)[Private]
Date: 2011-03-13 05:56 am (UTC)[pause, and then what the frown is for:]
I wouldn't have expected slaving from the Nietzcheans, based on those here.
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Date: 2011-03-13 06:01 am (UTC)And you're not seeing a representative sample of them on the Barge. Tyr's a special case, and Rhade predates your contemporary Nietzchean by circa 300 years, although the gene for backstabbing was apparently going strong back then.
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Date: 2011-03-13 06:32 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2011-03-13 04:59 pm (UTC)nice rationalization, though. never heard that one before. definite points for effort and originality, sort of a "blame the victim" mentality but funny.
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Date: 2011-03-13 05:24 pm (UTC)And hey, no effort or originality required! It's pretty simple as far as I'm concerned: Whatever you've done in your life? Whatever's happened to you? That's what you've got to work with. If you told me a deep dark secret and then this flood happens? Well, that's just what life happened to throw at you. You're not a victim of anything, it's just the consequence of having a secret in a madhouse, and you still get to run your own damage control.
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Date: 2011-03-13 05:35 pm (UTC)but "victory" smells temporary. I'll be sure to check in with you the next time shit's flung monumentally fan-wards.
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Date: 2011-03-13 05:53 pm (UTC)If people wanna see it as the universe coming after you personally? That's just fine. I just see it as the consequence of existence. So maybe it gets you down for a while, so maybe it sucks, so maybe you hate it, and you're miserable or whatever. Either you keep going or you don't. It's not a philosophy, it's just life. It's that simple.
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Date: 2011-03-13 08:10 pm (UTC)don't worry, you're still 15 points ahead of the social darwinism "we eat you so we're superior" guy.
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Date: 2011-03-13 08:19 pm (UTC)So, I'm gonna take a stab in the dark here and guess that you're an inmate?
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Date: 2011-03-13 10:55 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-13 04:55 pm (UTC)[Private]
Speaking of things I don't remember, why didn't you tell me we were friends?
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Date: 2011-03-13 05:00 pm (UTC)Private
Date: 2011-03-13 05:28 pm (UTC)Re: Private
Date: 2011-03-13 06:05 pm (UTC)Not important enough.Well, now you know. If it bothers you, I'm sorry. It wasn't as if I was taking advantage of you not knowing.
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Date: 2011-03-13 06:10 pm (UTC)Private
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